I try to live my life believing that every step has gotten me to where I am today. However, the older I get, the more I realize that my actions have direct consequences and though I have a hard time believing it, they have influence too. My biggest regret in life is that though I believe in God and hope to be worthy of being called a Christian, I have spent the majority of my life not living like one.
My faith is a struggle. Being good is hard for me, and I loose interest easily, not in God or his love, but I have difficulty staying on the straight and narrow. I have a bad temper and only in the recent years have I had the ability to try and think before I react. I'm vengeful, in a not so good way. I'm passive aggressive, so it's my nature to wait maybe even years to get someone back and make sure they never see me coming. I regret those things about me. I am always trying to change and be better. I have faith that one day I can get to where I be and give it all to the man upstairs.