Favorite city

New Orleans, Louisiana.....I originally decided to vacation there after the hurricane. I wanted to prove that it could be a family vacation place because we all know when someone tells me something not to do, I do it to spite them. I quickly fell in love, and so did my kids. We did a French Quarter walking tour, hurricane Katrina tour, swamp tour, the aquarium, a cooking class, children's museum, and we walked every where. In 5 days we used the car once. I took notes on everything and quizzed them on the way home because I pulled them out of school for the trip. BTW, if you vacation research a viator pass. That how we did so much. I was born to live in New Orleans, and Miranda and her best friend who went with us feel the same way. Both girls want to live in New Orleans when they grow up now. Next to Memphis, it is the one place I long to be. Cajun food is my favorite, the French Quarter feels likes home, and I don't ever feel afraid there. I'm a city girl, always will be, and New Orleans fits me to a tee. I even recently packed Raili in Estonia several types of Cajun food lol.

My sweet family

A picture of me

Nicknames

I had lots of those. People rarely call me by given name.

Dad called me Cadillac and Double E
Mom called me Pooky Rocky and Chaka Khan
In school I was called Moonchild
And for some reason to aggravate me people tend to call me Shea-Shea

Something I Miss

Memphis,Tn. It is home, always will be. Sometimes I think I hear it calling me back.

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Something I regret

I try to live my life believing that every step has gotten me to where I am today. However, the older I get, the more I realize that my actions have direct consequences and though I have a hard time believing it, they have influence too. My biggest regret in life is that though I believe in God and hope to be worthy of being called a Christian, I have spent the majority of my life not living like one.


My faith is a struggle. Being good is hard for me, and I loose interest easily, not in God or his love, but I have difficulty staying on the straight and narrow. I have a bad temper and only in the recent years have I had the ability to try and think before I react. I'm vengeful, in a not so good way. I'm passive aggressive, so it's my nature to wait maybe even years to get someone back and make sure they never see me coming. I regret those things about me. I am always trying to change and be better. I have faith that one day I can get to where I be and give it all to the man upstairs.

Something I am looking forward to

Disney!!! I think we are going next month. The two littles are beside themselves about it. Miri....well she is of course to cool to do anything. If it's not a trip to New Orleans, then why bother. Still, it will be nice to get away and have a real vacation.

Dream home

Drive through midtown Memphis some day. All of my dream homes are there. I want a craftman's style home. Lots of hardwood(light colored) and original woodwork. I want a big stone porch to hang a swing on too :)

Bible verse

Life is a lot harder than we make it. Some things are actually pretty simple.


1 John 4:8 (New International Version, ©2011)

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

A picture I love

Love maybe comes before trust. I did not always know this. Andy, AJ, and Miri trusted me I think from the beginning. They accepted who I was in their life and knew I would not hurt them, would always be there, and that I loved them. With little O, it took longer. I know he loved me very quickly. After all, how could he not fall in love with me, knowing that I worshiped the ground he walked on ;) We had fun, I opened new doors for him, and I came to take him home. He knew for a long time I was coming, so he took my hand, and off we went. However, trust took longer. We all have different ideas of what trust is perhaps. One of mine is falling asleep with someone. I've loved a good many people in my life, but I have felt comfortable enough to fall asleep with few. I'm the last person to close my eyes, even with my husband of almost 15 years. I wasn't raised to ever let my guard down. So how long did it take for me to earn O's trust? It took 8 months. It took 8 long months for him to fall asleep in my arms. He liked being held much sooner than that, but if he felt himself nodding off, he would go to his bedroom and climb into bed. Being that close was......uncomfortable to him. I could sense his panic. I know the feeling. I remember what it was like to wonder what might happen when I fell asleep or the disappointment of wondering if the one person I loved would be there when I woke up. Children's hearts get hurt easier than ours do though they heal faster too. 8 months after being home, my son allowed me to rock him to sleep. I may not have pictures of his first tooth or the first step, but I have a picture of the first time he slept in my arms. 8 months is how long it takes to diligently and daily work on earning 6 year old's trust.

Goals

1. I want a cleaner house.

2. I want kids that don't talk back.

3. I want Christmas to be fun again.

4. I want to laugh.

5. I want to be loved.

6. I want to not loose my temper.

7. I want to save some money

8. I want a fast car.

9. I want an Eesti princess.

10. I want to get to heaven.

What I believe

1. God is as real as the air I breath, and Jesus was sent here to give me a chance to go to heaven.

2. Life is too short and sometimes terribly long.

3. Not every mother should raise a child or have one for that matter.

4. Blood kinship means very little.

5. Don't do anything half assed.

6. If you look behind you, it is much harder to go forward.

7. Give until it hurts.

8. Your heart can lead you astray. Temper it with enough common sense, but know when to to say to hell with it, hold tight, and hang on for the ride of a lifetime.

9. Spend less time judging.

10. You only get one chance at this living thing. Do it with as little regrets as possible.

Favorite tv shows

Lock Down
Deadliest catch
Sister wives
Special Victims svu
Criminal minds
House Hunters International
Big Bang theory
Outsourced

I don't watch any medical shows that show everyone sleeping with everyone. Enough of that goes on in real life, so no house or grey's anatomy lol

Something I am afraid of

Mice, without a doubt. There is nothing that could ever be cute or cuddly about them. I read books about cute little mice families when I was little, I visited pet stores, and I know I am much bigger than they are. It doesn't matter though. I hate them with everything that is in me. I've been known to stand on the table screaming and 8 months pregnant if one runs across the floor. They.are.evil.