Saturday, September 11, 2010
Sometimes I wonder. I wonder if my children will ever know just how hard I try to do my best for them. I wonder if they really comprehend that I only work to give them the things they want. All of income from my checks go straight to private school tuition, karate, horses, movies, mall trips, college books, gas for Andy and help with his bills. Every other week I go out and buy myself lunch(a cheap one usually from the dollar menu) or maybe a kids meal for breakfast. That's it. I am not complaining. I adore my babies, I just wish they would appreciate the things I do for them a little more. It hurts to see them take the things I work so hard to given them for granted. It hurts for them to think I am too strict, and it seems like as much as I give, it is never enough. Being a mother is hard, being a good mother is even harder............
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
I'm sure it is no help at all, but I feel exactly the same way.
ReplyDeleteBeing a good mom is hard!! I work 40-50 hours a week so my kids can have everything they want, but sometimes I wonder too if they realize how hard I work so they can have everything. Only time will tell if they realize!!
ReplyDeleteYour kids are very lucky to have you as their mom!!
I was little worried about your last post. You are making a good job and it is understandable that sometimes you need just a rest.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, you have wonderful and intelligent kids. Why not to tell they frankly how do you feel sometimes? You are the family and that means that even mom have a right to share her hesitations.
Obviously not a mother, but from a dependant's point of view (as an adult - so it helps me understand some things), I think what has helped avoid burnout for Linda is a) some 'her' time, b) some 'her money (if they have allowences, why don't you?) and c) some dream, some do, some thing - for Linda it is her jogging group at the Y, drinks every months with co-workers and her support group. Sure, the child brain part of me goes 'She gets a night at a resturant - UNFAIR!', but the adult brain part of me realizes that she needs that. I don't know how to convince kids of that. But how else could they, for example, be proud to cheer for you to run a 5K for breast cancer?
ReplyDeleteYou sound like a great mom (HORSES? how many do you have?), totally. I think you are a great person too.